Have you ever noticed that many of the same types of people that are chronically sick have similar personalities? Many people who continue working through unbearable stress and mental fatigue end up wearing themselves down and it takes a toll on their immune systems. I used to believe this was caused by the stress they were under and that it could not be helped. I also used to be one of these people, and was too stubborn and stuck in my ways to realize that maybe it wasn’t the stress I was under, but my natural reaction to my life.
Today makes 50 days of consecutive meditation. And last week was 3 months of complete sobriety from any medicines, drugs, or alcohol. While I am still a work-in-progress, my mind fog is beginning to clear. I see how trapped I felt in my day-to-day life. I recognize how terrified I was of not living up to my potential. I was constantly beating myself up (physically, mentally, verbally) for not being enough, doing enough or having enough. I was breaking myself down.
I am starting to see how unworthy I felt. I was trying to compensate for my broken self esteem and my complete disregard for my mental health. I thought if I received enough validation from others that it would eventually prove to me my own worth. If I gave enough, went out of my way and drained my own emotional cup that people would refill it for me.
That is impossible. Only we as ourselves know what we need: the words, the true love, the security, the support. Nobody else’s words mean a thing because they dont know us at a soul level. Once you find the healing through self-love and the moments of joy you can create throughout the day for yourselves, you will be more careful to selectively choose thoughts and activities that help you align with your inner being.
I cannot say that I never slip back into those negative thought patterns, but I can begin to feel a tickle in my throat when I stay there long enough.
Which leads me to my ultimate point of this point. The cure that modern medicine has been seeking is much more simple than learning to love ourselves, which is typically a lifelong process. However if, from wherever you are right now, you search for a feeling of relief, you can begin to see improvement.
By recognizing wherever you are right now in this moment and turning your attention towards a thought that feels slightly better, you will find a sense of relief. This will also be a process, but eventually you will see that you will eventually return your body to the wellness and joy that are natural to us all.
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A wise man once told me that there is not a single healer who is in perfect health.